progress 2

here goes another update of where i am.

i realized, today, that i still lack of skills with brush strokes. it's very unnatural and manga-looking, which can be seen as good thing or bad thing. comparing to master artists i've seen so far, i still have A LOT to learn.

i still don't think i know painter ix. i'll just ask bunch of people online and stuff. no hope for me.

oh yeah, i made the background white, because i just couldn't stand the other one with trees and bushes. i feel so bad and stupid. what would my art teacher say if he sees this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

ughhhhh...

drew this to keep myself awake yesterday at 12 am because i had to do government hw. it's literally ruining my life now: i can't sleep well and i don't even have enough time to sleep; i gain more weight because i would eat to deal with my stress; i can't be so hyper and happy anymore; and, i can't draw anymore because i don't have that much time.

it's so ridiculous and unreasonable. i tried to accepted it as a process of learning, but no. this is messed up.

chapter 12 updated

i updated chapter 12 of my manga in my deviantart webpage, so please check it out:

so into arthurian legend

painter ix. digital watercolor.
my brush stroke is getting weird after oil paint lessons in my saturday art school TT.

yesterday, i finished reading this book for my school during the thanksgiving holiday.
it's called "enemy of god" written by bernard cornwell.

i'll review the book when i get to post the completed piece.


anyway. i was so into that book that i had a dream about king arthur XDD.
all i remember is this: there was a little hill with a dried tree and a rock on the top, and merlyn, dressed in saruman's white cloak and white, straightened hair XDD, sitting on the rock. i don't remember what the topic was, but it was so serious and no one, among the people around merlyn, talked but merlyn himself and i don't remember hearing anything. it was as if i were a deaf. anyway...when a woman came up to merlyn to say something to him, he noticed that i was there and gave me a smile. and his lips made a v because he didn't have a tooth! XDD. and i found myself holding a sword, which i later found out to be "excalibur" and merlyn made me protect it until i had to deliver it to arthur.

isn't it so funny??? i love my imagination lol.


now that i've finished reading "enemy of god" which has awesomely vivid battle scenes and that i've watched the movie "the fountain" (which i'll write about later) that had gory scene of toturing and slashing people, i'm so exposed to gore and sex. and i just can't help but think about them because they come back up in my head! so i'm going through a hard time right now.......lol


oh i forgot to mention anything about the drawing. this part is when one of the bad guys kills the narrator's daughter after insulting his wife and basically destroying everything (i believe...). this was particularly sad for me -- yes i cried! -- because this girl, youngest of the three, was just like her father and she could ride a horse, shoot arrows, and so on. it was just so sad!!! also, i placed jay, from my manga, in place of the narrator, derfel, as i always do whenever i read something, it just broke my heart...........

i think bernard cornwell is awesome!!!!!!

i got a new ipod!!!!

whee-hee!!!!!!!! i'm so happy!!!! isn't it so pretty???? i'm never gonna let anyone touch it!!!!

"beautiful memory"

so....i finally finished this piece for pta reflection show after sleeping at 2 am everyday during last week. it wasn't particularly challenging but i was disappointed that i failed to use the technique that i wanted to use. i think i was too hasty this time.

anyway, i'm so happy that i'm done with it, and hopefully i will get recognition or something....

ashton's house

finally i got the exterior of ashton's house done. it was really challenging for me, because it was more 3-dimentional and it took a lot of space. but, again, i like archetechtures XDD.

the insperations are from many different magazines, basically, and from my own imagination, though i wasn't that successful at bringing what i've imagined to life. but anyway, i'm so proud of myself cuz i at least got exterior done. interior's gonna be much more challening but i don't have to -- and i don't want to -- worry about it for now...

patterns

some patterns i made for my art 2 class. thought they were need and jotted them down before handing in my work for grade.



aren't i such a hippie or what???

under your shadow

i bet you that i have been drawing this since last summer! i got so busy that i can't give myself some time to finish it up!!! i dunno when i'll be able to finish it TT. but if i get to do it, i think i'll give some more contrasts and all. *sigh*

jay's new hairstyle

i was too bored when i went to nyc.

it's not like i don't like the one one (on the bottom right). i just thought that it's a little bit messy, concerning what he'll b doing in the future, like wearing suits and all...

but i didn't feel so bad with the new one, because, as i've wanted, it's not that messy, and it gives different atmosphere. like, he looks more calm and matured in terms of wisdom??? maybe it's just me who thinks like that XDD.

but the old one, though it's messy, it makes him look younger and more strong physically.

i dunno. both have pros and cons, and both look weird if i don't draw so well ;;.

i wanna choose the new one but i'm afraid to give a change. i like both actually. so maybe i can not change it for now, but gradually change the old hair style to the new one as jay gets old, since i'm gonna make skyler's hair gradually grow out till it's really long and wavy.

i dunnooooooo.

players haha

drew it pretty quickly before going to new york city (it's gonna be fun~ XDD).
i really like the lines and how darker lines are made when overlapped.
thanks to previous studying of gesture drawing, where i focused on anatomy, hands, and joints, i think i got better with bodies now.

i was really inspired before drawing, but, like everytime, i find myself unable more and more as i see those master artists.
gosh. how i felt so bad when i looked at their pictures.
i'm so jealous. i wish i could spend more time on drawing.

i also wish i had my own b-tool prg.
american b-tool sucks! oh.my.gosh.
those brushes are so bad! they make me feel so bad TT.

i made a blog

i kinda felt i was being really obssessed with my own manga whenever i talked about it in my other website. so i just decided to make a different webpage, where i solely focus on it and other stuff.

most of all, i'm going to post my manga and talk about them a lot. i think i'll post some doodles that i scanned. maybe oekaki and b-tool stuff too. oh i wish there were folders or menu or something like that so that i can organize 'em. other than those i think it'll be about architecture -- which i'm very interested with.

hopefully i shouldn't be too lazy XDD.

my goals:
1) improve my painting skills -- that includes, value, composition, color, and brush stroke.
2) be more comfortable drawing architectures and using perspective.
3) daily and regular practice and observation.
4) draw as fast as possible, but still retaining the quality.
5) never procrastinate, but complete what's been begun.

it's like one of my habit. i set multiple goals whenever i start a new webpage
or a new notebook or a journal, etc. i think they just help me keep in track of what i'm trying to accomplish and see where i am or where i was.

muhahaha. i'm gonna rule this place.