progress 2

here goes another update of where i am.

i realized, today, that i still lack of skills with brush strokes. it's very unnatural and manga-looking, which can be seen as good thing or bad thing. comparing to master artists i've seen so far, i still have A LOT to learn.

i still don't think i know painter ix. i'll just ask bunch of people online and stuff. no hope for me.

oh yeah, i made the background white, because i just couldn't stand the other one with trees and bushes. i feel so bad and stupid. what would my art teacher say if he sees this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

ughhhhh...

drew this to keep myself awake yesterday at 12 am because i had to do government hw. it's literally ruining my life now: i can't sleep well and i don't even have enough time to sleep; i gain more weight because i would eat to deal with my stress; i can't be so hyper and happy anymore; and, i can't draw anymore because i don't have that much time.

it's so ridiculous and unreasonable. i tried to accepted it as a process of learning, but no. this is messed up.