progress 2

here goes another update of where i am.

i realized, today, that i still lack of skills with brush strokes. it's very unnatural and manga-looking, which can be seen as good thing or bad thing. comparing to master artists i've seen so far, i still have A LOT to learn.

i still don't think i know painter ix. i'll just ask bunch of people online and stuff. no hope for me.

oh yeah, i made the background white, because i just couldn't stand the other one with trees and bushes. i feel so bad and stupid. what would my art teacher say if he sees this,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

ughhhhh...

drew this to keep myself awake yesterday at 12 am because i had to do government hw. it's literally ruining my life now: i can't sleep well and i don't even have enough time to sleep; i gain more weight because i would eat to deal with my stress; i can't be so hyper and happy anymore; and, i can't draw anymore because i don't have that much time.

it's so ridiculous and unreasonable. i tried to accepted it as a process of learning, but no. this is messed up.

chapter 12 updated

i updated chapter 12 of my manga in my deviantart webpage, so please check it out:

so into arthurian legend

painter ix. digital watercolor.
my brush stroke is getting weird after oil paint lessons in my saturday art school TT.

yesterday, i finished reading this book for my school during the thanksgiving holiday.
it's called "enemy of god" written by bernard cornwell.

i'll review the book when i get to post the completed piece.


anyway. i was so into that book that i had a dream about king arthur XDD.
all i remember is this: there was a little hill with a dried tree and a rock on the top, and merlyn, dressed in saruman's white cloak and white, straightened hair XDD, sitting on the rock. i don't remember what the topic was, but it was so serious and no one, among the people around merlyn, talked but merlyn himself and i don't remember hearing anything. it was as if i were a deaf. anyway...when a woman came up to merlyn to say something to him, he noticed that i was there and gave me a smile. and his lips made a v because he didn't have a tooth! XDD. and i found myself holding a sword, which i later found out to be "excalibur" and merlyn made me protect it until i had to deliver it to arthur.

isn't it so funny??? i love my imagination lol.


now that i've finished reading "enemy of god" which has awesomely vivid battle scenes and that i've watched the movie "the fountain" (which i'll write about later) that had gory scene of toturing and slashing people, i'm so exposed to gore and sex. and i just can't help but think about them because they come back up in my head! so i'm going through a hard time right now.......lol


oh i forgot to mention anything about the drawing. this part is when one of the bad guys kills the narrator's daughter after insulting his wife and basically destroying everything (i believe...). this was particularly sad for me -- yes i cried! -- because this girl, youngest of the three, was just like her father and she could ride a horse, shoot arrows, and so on. it was just so sad!!! also, i placed jay, from my manga, in place of the narrator, derfel, as i always do whenever i read something, it just broke my heart...........

i think bernard cornwell is awesome!!!!!!